“Adult friendships are hard. Everyone is busy and life happens. I’ve learned you gotta text people when you’re thinking of them. A simple ‘Thinking of you, hope all is well’ really goes a long way.”
-Rob Lowe
After Highschool most noteworthy:
Kelly: My GFFAE – girlfriend for ever and ever! Have you ever had someone in your life who was kind of your air, you needed them in order to actually breathe? That was Kelly. We actually met back in early elementary school when our brothers were in boy scouts together, like with Lauren [02. Dad & 11. Childhood Friends+]. We were friends but were never really good friends until after graduating. She came to my grad party – yes, I still had a party for my GED [06. High School/Diagnosis]- and we just kind of became inseparable from that point forward. Kelly is more than just a friend, she is like an extension of myself. A soulmate on a different plane of friendship. I don’t know how else to explain it, honestly. She just gets me. Kind of like how Marion is my [10. Twin Flame], Kelly is just a part of me. We both had other friends but her friends quickly became my friends as we were all basically together 24/7 for like 2 years. Kelly’s house became another home in a way, I came and went whenever. I’m honestly having trouble putting into words what our friendship was(is?). Bottom line, we were/are family! Update: Life, life happened. We don’t talk often these days however when we do, it’s as though >nothing< ever changed and no time has passed at all. Same for when she sees my mom, or I her’s. We’re just connected.
My mom comes up with nicknames for everyone, and I mean -every- one of my friends, as well as myself. I am Jeniqua and Kelly is Keliqua. I’ve mentioned that Lauren is Lori Lou, Marion is Mary Kathrynn, and Jessie was Jiz, not realizing what she was saying at first but it just became a running joke… ::facepalm:: And of course Igor became Ivan from one of Mom’s favorite vocalists, Ivan Rebroff. I always thought it was because they’re both Russian, but I just learned while looking up how to spell his name that Ivan Rebroff was actually German!?? ::mindblown::
—–Funny random fact I just thought about- I call Kellan (my youngest) “Bello” or “kB” which came from Kelly-Belly [thanks, Mom], which is originally from Kellan-Bellan turned Bello. Kelly is also KB, which I guess makes her the OGKB. With that said, I now declare her *OGKBGFFAE* bahaha. Nothing to see here, moving on—-
Hannah: Hannah and I met via the online support group through Dysautonomia Youth Network of America. While at the Mayo Clinic Dr. Fischer introduced me to this website where I could connect with other kids/teens with Dysautonomia [06. HS/Diagnosis]. Fastforward 3.5 years later and viola – Hannah appears! Hannah is almost 3 years younger than me, but I look up to her – figuratively AND literally. My poor kids get their stature from their Mama. Ha, ha. Hannah has always been so mature and wise beyond her years that everyone forgets she’s as young as she is (or was? I’ve known her since she had just turned 18). Having Dysautonomia herself, she gets what it’s like to need to cancel last minute without ever holding a grudge. She gets what it’s like when you can’t do anything but sit on the couch while you visit. While she may not be a mother herself, she gets what it’s like to need a break. After Leighton (my oldest) was born, she came over regularly (I almost think it was weekly for a while at first?) to help me out and continued visiting regularly until she took a nursing job at OSU a couple years later. Her friendship is loyal, pure and unconditional; as is her love for my children and the special bond she has with Leighton! Update: Stupid pandemic! Being a nurse in basically a step down ICU during a pandemic changes everything. ::cries:: Don’t get me wrong, she is still very much a part of my life even if we don’t talk as often as we once did. She’s tired. I’m tired. She has her own health to care for and I have mine. Things may not be what they once were but they’ll always be!! I know that no matter what, she’d drop everything to do everything in her power to be there for me if I needed her. Like I said, loyal and unconditional! She was the first person I ever met who also has Dysautonomia (I was going to make an inappropriate joke about being the first, but… I’ll pass by it.) Her friendship has meant more to me than I could possibly explain because she just, [gets it]…
Ashleigh: Ashleigh and I met while I was working towards becoming a CMA,AAMA [12. Life Detour]. Spending hours in labs together we quickly became friends, and I honestly don’t know how I would have finished school without her!! She looked out for me and made sure my health was a priority in clinicals. She was my person as I finished college and sitting next to her during commencements (being my one and only time in a cap and gown) will >always< hold a special place in my heart!!! She’s your firecracker, stereotypical “redheaded” woman and I’d never want her any other way! Between her vocabulary and voice decibel it became a running joke at how often she’d apologize to Igor. Ha, ha. It was so important to her that I stand up in her wedding, knowing very well there was a chance I may not make it, due to her wedding date being a week after Leighton was due. She planned for both scenarios, as if wedding planning wasn’t hard enough? But she’s the kind of person that has to keep busy, always on the go. Which is an ironic way of describing her as she was a flight attendant at the time and her husband is a pilot. It was so difficult trying to figure out a dress for her wedding not knowing where I’d be size wise from the pregnancy. I bought my dress around 30ish weeks thinking that would make sense for being newly postpartum. Yeah, about that… with Leighton coming early, my mother in law had to take the dress in -8 inches- last minute. So, that was fun. Update: Life got difficult with her hubby being a pilot and having 2 kids under 2. For a while she tried making a point to drive out once a month but it just got to be too much. And my not being able to drive didn’t help any. We just kind of stopped talking but it was never on bad terms. Living over 45 mins away from one another and the stage of life we were in, it’s definitely sad but [life just happens]. It’s been a few years since we’ve seen one another but we keep in touch through social media.
Jenna & Matt: My Twinnie and SLSBSubby (secret lover, snuggle buddy, substitute hubby) <- yes, [obviously] they’re inside jokes + Igor is also Jenna’s Subby. Though, Matt is a pretty good snuggle buddy, even if my “legs are weird”. ::sideeyes:: For reference, Matt and Jenna are both 5’11” – I’m barely 5’2″ (yup; I’m only in my mid-thirties and I’ve already started shrinking… ::arggg::) Matt and Jenna have been together since ’04, so being used to snuggling someone her size for so many years, snuggling someone my size would be different, or “weird” according to him. Jenna and I also met in a P.O.T.S. group like Hannah and I, only it was via Facebook. It’s only been a little over 8 years but it’s like we’ve known them our whole lives! Jenna (aka Double N or 2-N Jenna) is the peanut butter to my chocolate, making the perfect Reese’s cup! Okay that was cheezy as hell but I don’t know how else to say it, haha. She’s pb&j with her bestie, and well we both love all things peanut butter and Reese’s soo it works, okay?! I could and probably should make them a seperate post as there is so much to say, but here we go…. Jenna and I are Twinnies because we are freakishly similar when it comes to our likes and things from our past, down to the SAME EXACT wedding dress!!! What? Like, how?
Here’s a short list of where we’re parallel: Favorite shape: stars, favorite animal: pigs (we also both have piggy collections), favorite color: pink (though as I’m getting older I’m leaning more towards purple but pink is still right there!). Halloween, Practical Magic and Jamie Fraser [IYKYK]; hobbies include: reading, puzzles, diamond painting and (the -same-) T.V. shows. We both were 3rd-Keys (basically part time assistant managers) at Claire’s when we were younger and cheerleaders in high school. We both have Dysautonomia/P.O.T.S./EDS and see the [same] cardiologist in a whole different state! I was going to school for forensic science and she was going to be a defense lawyer (<- yes those are very different but you need forensics in the courtroom). Our husbands are both PC gamers (both playing World of Warcraft at the time we met; we even hooked them up playing together before we actually met in person) and are they’re both weird anti-vegetable creatures. Neither of us could survive without pizza, peanut butter or ice cream. We both have a thing for old/antique keys (so much so that we got matching tattoos to represent our POTS, but it’s also an old key with a star, obviously). We both were recovering from “heartbreak” over our best friends <ghosting> us [10. Twin Flame] right around the same time. She’s a writer and I’m a blogger. Neither of us are able to drive regularly or hold a {real} job due to our health. And I repeat: SAME wedding dress!!
So I guess when I said it was like we’ve known them our whole lives, we basically have given our likes and dislikes. The above is quite literally just a >short< list and it doesn’t even touch on Matt & Igor’s similarities besides their love for PC games and disdain for veggies!! Matt is without a doubt the funniest person I know, without even trying. He is so quick with his comebacks or random statements or whatever – I don’t think anyone has made Igor or I cry as much from laughing, than just being around/talking to Matt. Where as Jenna is by far the most mentally strongest person I know, as well as the most thoughtful or generous person I’ve ever met… unless you piss her off!! Like, really truly get on her bad side. Which isn’t necessarily easy to do, even though she’s definitely the Queen of Swords and can be a straight up bitch when needed. <- a title she wears proudly, haha. She truly doesn’t care what others think and is always authentically herself. She has a heart of gold and goes way above and beyond for those she loves!! I can’t even count the number of times her generosity has left me in tears of gratitude since she’s come into my life.
That first year we met, we were basically inseparable – saw each other every to every other weekend and occasionally during the week. They were instantly our best friends. In fact, Matt was the first person Igor felt an authentic friendship with, someone to actually call his best friend. They talked daily whether it was via texting, Matt calling while he waited for his truck to be loaded or unloaded for work, or online gaming. And obvi, Jenna and I did, too!! Problem is: their other friends were starting to get upset and they felt bad letting them down, while also feeling bad for letting us down, as we had become so used to seeing one another so often. Admittedly it got a little awkward because they both started backing away without saying anything. [::Cue low self-esteem trigger: walls up and locked::]
I knew this friendship meant something more to all of us, so I pulled up my big girl pants and confronted Jenna outright. That’s how I learned the above ^… after talking things weren’t as awkward but it wasn’t like year one. Though, just like every new relationship – things slow down as time goes on, right? Prior to Covid we made a point to have monthly game nights on top of whenever else we’d get together. In the 8+ years we’ve known each other we’ve spent 4 NYEs together. They are our travel buddies from annual camping trips [Tent City >evolved<], to Canadian food festivals and ghost haunts at old prisons. We have SO many trips in mind and I look forward to each and every one!! They love our children as their own nephews and the boys obsess over them (particularly Uncle Matt because, well, video games, ::duh::). Matt came over while Jenna and I were out of town last fall to watch one of Kb’s baseball games [on the sidelines -alone- since Igor was coaching and Leighton was batboy]. He even then picked up pizza and they had a “boys night”. We may not all talk or see each other as often as year one but they’re still without question some of our best friends!! Scratch that, they’re [Family!]!!